Oh Lei, I go
Welcome to the second moon phase, I've pre-written (and maybe pre-published) this before the second phase of the moon so I can keep in touch. Now, what am I gonna talk about here?
[Content Warning: Contains Swears and Venting]
Boredom time
Now I did think on how I was gonna start this blog but, I am gonna say this straight out loud: I am bored as fuck. Like I got literally nothing else because of the things I have right now in life. I mean sure it's a good thing but it's a slow river to be honest with my self, like something that never happened and pretty much on my desk binging out of stuff in youtube is... something that is generally well-expected about myself to be honest. It's currently like holy week right now and there's pretty much about the things on roman catholic stuff, I do respect beliefs btw.
But really, so bored in fact that I wandered off around the internet. I didn't mean to be intentional but I really want to at least auto-pilot for a while. I didn't really want to "succeed" by modern standards and more like a modern day hermit kind of guy though, maybe that's a far fetch thing but I prefer somehow living like that because of that unfunny virus half a decade ago. I still want to limit myself with youtube, but I think the only way for me to actually do something is when something goes in my way, and here's what I've been actually doing:
Rune, but 17 years ago, scaped
You know that game, that kind of computer rpg thingy where all you do is click and watch stuff happened. I've been delving with this idea since the... last games I played didn't really work so well for me. But what I can mean is that I've yearn for at least a palette cleanser for me to play video games again. I admit it that I still need video games, but in a much more moderated manner afterwards. This game is something that I am not going to play online though... instead I went through the opposite way: Offline MMO.
And no, I don't play those games in an mmo-style format; but this game 2009scape, has has the files (and will not show it) that lets me actually play it offline without any strings attatched. I digged straight in and oh boy, it's really fun to play once I'm all alone. But... I think this something has gottem me something... personal.
The Ship of Theseus
It's a brief one: Ship of Theseus, gets damaged, replace with new wood, many damage, repair it until it covers everything, so is it a same ship? We get this but... I gotta get this directly with this game I found to play, but I remember that I used to be a not-so-great person before. Without these blogs back then, and the usual yada yada yada. This is something important that I want to know but keeping this layered is that it reminded me of this sound... and it fucking hit me like I shot back in time years ago.
I didn't know runescape btw, but this remind me of this blocky game (not minecraft) that I used to be in before. It reminded me of this youtuber who make edits with this exact sound effect, and then I love that well. Then I join somewhere on discord (vague memory though...) and... I didn't do so well because of who I was before. All I can summarize is that I was an annoying fuck without considerations on doing anything before, and... it was something unhealthy that I completely grew out of it once more and such.
Over the years, this part of my life is something that I need to forgive myself from time and time again. Time as I began to mature and shit that I do in the past is slightly haunting me with guilty nostalgia. I really want to profusely apologize and such, but the best thing I know is... forgive myself every so often on this terrible time I was before. It's a little naïve, but I gotta face my own sins and there's very little choice but to actually understand myself better before I can actually forgive myself. It was horrible, but I want to forgive and just change at least for now on.
so... about 2009scape?
The Axiom of Sandbox
Something deals with 2009scape being a sandbox and such like in mmos is pretty much marketed with ideas of "do whatever you want" mantra part of things. I've seen videos and such, ideas of roleplaying and other means to do something in an rpg and sandbox games is all fuzz about basically "having a goal." But in my opinion: I absolutely disagree on what sandbox is all about. It's a thing, yes, you can do whatever you want; but to make goals and plans out of it? Sounds like a second job to me though.
This is a small little axiom I would consider to define sandbox itself and here as follows: Curiosity, Boredom, and Ideas.
- Curiosity is your standard way of doing things: aimless wandering. Seeing new things and such like you were a kid before, basically losing yourself in a place that you've never been here before. This is easily eliminated because people gets a paralyze on this idea alone because they were hardwired to do goals in the first place (because of projects and a drive to create a magnum opus).
- Boredom is self-explanatory: you're fucking bored as hell. But that's the point, because there's nothing much going on, only you have to do something. This gets blurred to death because of goals and plans since it automatically lets you do something on that instead because we like to do something to spend our energy in. But that's boredom is a good thing, which leads us to...
- Ideas, the most difficult element so far. Maybe not, but the thing is that we humans associate our own ideas we have in real life. Kids create things in the sandbox and stack stuff out of random to create an idea. But ideas came out of nowhere, and most done through actions immediately. Solidifying them into goals or plans can slowly wear out its novelty and lead to either incompletion or scrapping them entirely.
These things, I think for me, are the important elements of playing in a sandbox. I might reinvent it but I don't care, because I rediscover it anyway. And this is true to games that have sandbox elements in them, and it applies to roleplaying as well. These three are completely unpredictable and results in new ideas or existing ideas to be reused in the sandbox which makes it even more appealing than just a simple magnum opus to do so.
And this is how I realize to apply this in 2009scape, and it worked because I barely even care about quest other than just getting cool loot. Maybe not the greatest optimizer or grinder, but I just do things at least, even getting new ideas on how am I going to do something next in the game. And perhaps maybe, will work in a long run as long as I have ideas, same goes to solo ttrpgs either if you want a step further.
My Ratatan World.
Yet, another brief one, but it's about my solo ttrpg game of ratatan. I've been keeping this notebook for a while and I haven't make much progress due to my own technology stuff and such here. I'm going to create an actual play out of it and digitize it first through my laptop. Ratatan is something that I've been hooked in for a while despite not playing the game itself, it's the community and content that puts me into such interest in these animals though. Soon, I'll mark my contribution through my blogs here... soon! maybe! I dunno! just let me cook.
Conclusion
Well, that's it for this blog, and it turns out to be much better than just sitting through HTML files and such thanks to markdown. I may not be always flexible in terms of strict schedules and I'll pre-release this just to emulate before the deadline thingy. But for now, I'll get back on my stuff into the dungeon. Speaking of dungeons, here's a little spoiler on what's going on with my Untitled Campaign:
=> ???: We'll cross here.
=> Henaine: Tch...
=> ??? seems pressed on Henaine's Scoff.
=> ???: Stern... we'll find another camp on the way there.
@ Everyone: Cross the bridge
=> You and the others make your way across a rather simpler bridge, but...
you weren't sure if that were the case.
Your sigil face hummed witfully of a subtle smoke, is he really that sure?
-> Random Event: PC Related, Ambush, Overthrow]
? Is it the guards?
-> Random Event Bonus (Doubles on 2d6)
-> Random Event 2: PC Related Again, Control, Animal
\[So... an ambush of some kind of animal that wants to control who?
Rolling for Iron Falcon Bestiaries from here.]
-> Iron Falcon Clear Encounters: Hydra, added to bestiaries)
Oh no, that's going to get through this soon... hopefully they're... "safe." Anyways, I'll signing off from here now. Chirp! :3